Week 6: Forgive & Forget, Bells

My Forgive and Forget playlist is mostly based upon my experience with my ex-boyfriend, Voldemort. I don't know how forgiving it really is, since most of the songs are "you broke my heart, asshole" and the one song I wanted to play in forgiveness didn't really fit in with the sound of the playlist. And it talked about how eventually the two will get married, which for the two of us is less likely than the world exploding in 2012, so it didn't seem to fit lyrically that well. But I decided to end the playlist with two very important songs- "Happy Ending" by Mika and "Hero/Heroine" by Boys Like Girls- because I felt like I couldn't NOT have those songs on there. "Happy Ending" made me cry every time I heard it. Voldemort was the one who introduced Mika to me and to have a song capture exactly what I was feeling so well... it was absolutely crushing. "Hero/Heroine" was a risk as it's definitely mainstream, but I thought 'Fuck it' decided to play it because it was "our song" in a way. He told me it reminded him of how he felt about me, except he sung it to me using "your love is the sweetest thing" instead of "sweetest sin." It's ironic because, that's exactly what our relationship became. But it's my way of forgiving him-allowing the "world" to see a glimpse of who we used to be together.

"Nineteen" by Tegan & Sara - "I felt you in my life before I ever thought to / Feel the need to lay it down beside you and tell you / I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you / And now we're saying bye / Bye / Bye"

"Special Needs" by Placebo - "Remember me whenever noses start to bleed / Remember me special needs / Just nineteen a sucker's dream / I guess I thought you had the flavor / Just nineteen a dream it seemed / Six months off for bad behavior"

"Criminal" by Fiona Apple - "I've been a bad, bad girl / I've been careless with a delicate man / And it's a sad, sad world / When a girl will break a boy / Just because she can / Don't you tell me to deny it / I've done wrong and I wanna suffer for my sins... What I need is a good defense / 'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal / And I need to be redeemed / To the one I've sinned against / Because he's all I ever knew of love"

"The Freshman" by The Verve Pipe - "Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says / Can't be held responsible / 'Cause she was touching her face / And I won't be held responsible / She fell in love for the first place / For the life of me / I cannot remember / What made us think that we were wise / And we'd never compromise / For the life of me / I cannot believe / We'd ever die for these sins"

"9 Crimes" by Damien Rice - "Leave me out with the waste / This is not what I do / It's the wrong kind of place / To be thinking of you"

"Satellite Heart" by Anya Marina - "So pretty so smart / Such a waste of a young heart / What a pity what a sham / What's the matter with you, man?... I hear you're living out of state, running in a whole new scene / You know I haven't slept in weeks, you're the only thing I see / I'm a satellite heart lost in the dark / I'm spun out so far you stop I start / But I'll be true to you no matter what you do"

"Breathe" by Alexi Murdoch - "And all the suffering you've witnessed / And all the hand prints on the wall / They remind you how it's endless / How endlessly you fall / And the answer that you're seeking / For the question that you found / Drives you further to confusion / As you lose your sense of ground... Keep your head above water / But don't forget to breathe"

"Possibility" by Lykke Li - "There's a possibility / All I gon' get is gone with your step... So tell me you hear my heart stop / You're the only one who knows... Know that when you leave / By blood and by mean / You walk like a thieve / By blood and by mean / I'll fall when you leave... So tell me when my sigh is over / You're the reason why I'm close / Tell me when you hear me falling / There's a possibility / It wouldn't show / By blood and by mean / I fall when you leave / By blood and by mean / I follow your lead"

"I Don't Love You" by Audrey Phoenix - "You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know... Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading / So sick and tired of all the needless beating / But baby when they knock you / Down and out / It's where you oughta stay... When you go / Would you have the guts to say / 'I don't love you / Like I loved you / Yesterday'"

"Forever And Almost Always" by Kate Voegele - "So the story goes on down / The less traveled road / It's a variation on / The one I was told / And although it's not the same / It's awful close, yeah / In an ordinary fairy tale land / There's a promise of a perfect happy end / And I imagine having just short of that / Is better than nothing / So you'll be mine / Forever and almost always / And I'll be fine / Just love me when you can, yeah / And I'll wait patiently / I'll wake up everyday / Just hoping that you still care"

"You Told Me You Loved Me" by Cinematic Sunrise - "The nights get lonely / And all I have left is a memory of you / I tried to say this / But now there's nothing left for me to do / And I've never been one to brag / Please don't go, just stay / I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away / Miss your voice, and your touch / And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?... And tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know"

"Happy Ending" by Mika - "Two o'clock in the morning / Something's on my mind / Can't get no rest / Keep walking around / If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong / I can get to my sleep / I can think that we just carried on / This is the hardest story that I've ever told / No hope or love or glory / Happy ending's gone forever more / I feel as if I'm wasted / And I'm wastin' everyday / This is the way you left me / I'm not pretending / No hope, no love, no glory / No happy ending / This is the way that we love / Like it's forever / Then live the rest of our life / But not together"

"Hero/Heroine" by Boys Like Girls - "I never thought you could break me apart / I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart... I won't try to philosophize / I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes / This is how I feel / And it's so surreal / I got a closet filled up to the brim / With the ghosts of my pasts and their skeletons / And I don't know why / You'd even try... And I feel a weakness coming on / Never felt so good to be so wrong / Had my heart on lockdown / And then you turned me around / And I feel like a newborn child / Every time I get a chance to see you smile / It's not complicated / I was so jaded... I feel like a hero / And you are my heroine / Do you know that your love is the sweetest thing/sin"